Chapter 93

He squeezed his eyes closed and held her, not wanting to let on as he asked, "Are you okay?" Against his arm, he could feel Sarah's response, a short nod. "What's wrong then?" He asked, knowing it wasn't okay at all or she wouldn't have stopped him like she used to do.

A little bit of frustration creeped in on him when he didn't get a reply, he just wanted to help her, to know what was wrong so could fix it for her and make it all better again. He only ever wanted to see her happy.

"What's wrong?" He urged again, he needed to know or he'd never be able to sleep tonight. "You know you can tell me anything." He reminded her gently. "Even if I don't understand, I'll always try to. You know that, right?"
He could feel Sarah nod against him again with a soft "Yeah."
"So why don't you tell me what's wrong so I can fix it for you?" His voice sounded almost pleading.
She cuddled closer into him, hiding her face in his neck. "I'm just scared it might hurt or something."
He frowned at that, unsure at why she would think that. "Because of the...?" He wasn't going to say it but he felt Sarah's nod of agreement. "Why would it hurt?" He asked unsure.
"Because of your size."
"My size?"
"You're big."
That wasn't news to him, what did that matter? Especially after two years. "Have I ever hurt you before?" Slightly worried he asked his question and hoped for a negative answer but only got a shrug. "I have?" Now he definitely felt worried.
"Not necessarily hurt but sometimes when you get a little rough it can feel a little tender when you reach too deep or afterwards." Sarah finally admitted to him, knowing he would never intentionally hurt her. "It also depends on the day so it's not always the same."
"Yeah, but you tell me when that happens and we go slower." Or at least so he had thought until now.
Sarah shrugged again. "Sometimes I don't."
"Why not? I would never want to hurt you or make you feel sore in any sort of way." He moved from his position to lay down next to her so he could face her.
"I know that," Sarah answered, "but I know you like to be rough once in a while."
"Not if it's going to hurt you." His hand reached out to cup her cheek, holding it there as he looked at her beautiful face in the dusk of their room. "We'll take it slow, okay?" He asked gently, waiting for her to nod before reaching in to kiss her tenderly.

He reached out and pulled her leg over his hip. Glad they were already naked before they started. He kissed her deeply again and pulled her closer against him. It had been a while and he could already start to feel himself getting excited.

Slowly he moved his hand down between her legs, gently nudging her to move them apart. As always what he found, made him smile. She might have been unsure but he was right, she wanted it just as much as he did right now. He kissed her again as he moved a finger inside her warmth, a gasp escaping from Sarah.

He pulled away from the kiss to look at her with worry. "Alright?" He asked quickly, not moving just yet.
Sarah nodded, moving closer to capture his lips in their kiss again.

Slowly he moved his finger, trying to be gently even though Sarah said she was alright with him doing so. His other hand gently stroked her back, hoping it would help her be more at ease. The more he kissed, the more he wanted her. He wanted to be inside her.

Slowly again, he pulled his hand away, wiping it on the sheet before pulling her closer to him. Once again he pulled her leg up to his hip so he could get in a better position next to her.

He pulled away from the kiss to meet her green eyes. "Ready?" He asked, wanting to be entirely sure she wanted to do this.
"Yeah." Sarah said softly, moving her hand into his hair.

He watched her eyes as he slowly entered her, not breaking the contact for a second. Sarah's feelings were all that mattered to him. He slowly moved his way in until he heard Sarah moan and stopped.

"Too far?" He asked carefully, unsure if her moan was pleasure or distress but by the look on her face he could figure it out.

Backing away just a little, he kissed her again and started making long slow thrusts making sure he didn't go all the way. Almost right away he could notice Sarah was enjoying his long and slow thrusts, which made him feel even better. Ten days had been much too long to have gone without while she was with him. If he'd been on the road on his own, it'd be different. With his wife with him, he craved her.

Not much later he noticed Sarah's tell tale signs, she pulled from their kiss so she could breathe deeping, her fingers grabbing on to his hair as she found her release.

Soon enough, he claimed her lips again and started improving his thrusts, a little faster and a little more until he could feel her fingers pull on his hair again.

He pulled her closer against him again so he could burry himself deeper inside her. He needed it all as he found his release inside her.

Holding her close, they both tried to catch their breath. Her heart beating against his chest as he held her, not ready to let go of her just yet. He loved her so much in this moment. The messy blonde hair, her eyes bright green with passion. Those lips he loved to kiss, just a tad swollen. Her cheeks a little flushed. He was simply grateful to have her back.